Between real, sobriety, dreams and longing 

2018 i left my hometown (Fortaleza)and certainty for a dumb daydream. (UFRGS Porto Alegre).

       But what if the theory of butterfly effect and parallel universes were maybe useful , and thoses scientists are not so lunatics. 

    Christmas is the most popular day of the year. The party begins days before with the shopping of food: frozen chicken, bakery cakes. Cornstarch cookies. Panettone filled with the much-loved ingredient: dried raisins. Nope... nope...  and decoration of the house (with colorful Christmas lights on the green artificial little trees)

When people join family and friends to celebrate together and all the problems are put apart . 

On the table the turkey of soy is served with coke. 

Stories are shared between the folks, sad or or joyful under the mistletoe. 

Until the hour to open the gifts 

I have earned two Italians chocolate bars from a friend of my mother. One I ate the other I kept to give for someone special (Daniel, my studies friend in that period) 

The new year party at the Borghese part of the city was one week later. I headed to meet Daniel and give him the chocolate bar 

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 People use to make a list of some points to get better before the day of the year. In my case I didn't do it and otherwise I have tried to get better being vegan, au fur et à mesure 

 

. Like French People says, but was a low progress. I've pointed to reach financial independence, but it meant to leave my town and get a scholarship in other city, these two points to me was already an success.

 

          I need to replay the vinyl yet , sorry then.

 

I went to a hostel for two days to the big festival (a week after Christmas) at the litoral. I took the chocolate bar with me. 

 

I took a seas bath at that afternoon. 

 

 

 

Thoses hours were so magic, that atmosphere of cristmcan endure an whole week.

 

 

Maybe all of thoses stimulus push me to go away. Always seeking for unreachebles and utopics goals. 

 

Seeking the neighbors greener gras.  

 

I missed the bus to his(Daniel my studies friend of that period) quarter though.

So I end up sleeping at 12:00 pm without seeing the fireworks. 

 

I don't judge myself for have left.

But I wonder if some thought mine created some ramification wich would have perhaps build another alternative path and following it I could have stayed

. Now wandering in my head I think I got it , I'm so happy for this

 

 

 

Waymond Wang: You think I'm weak don't you?

 

CEO Waymond: [to Movie Star Evelyn] All of those years ago when we first fell in love, your father would say I was too sweet for my own good. Maybe he was right.

 

Waymond Wang: .

 

[to Verse-Jumpers]

 

Waymond Wang: Please! Please! Can we... can we just stop fighting?

 

CEO Waymond: You tell me it's a cruel world and we're all running around in circles. I know that. I've been on this earth just as many days as you.

 

Waymond Wang: I know you are all fighting because you are scared and confused. I'm confused too. All day, I don't know what the heck is going on. But somehow, this feels like it's all my fault.

 

CEO Waymond: When I choose to see the good side of things, I'm not being naive. It is strategic and necessary. It's how I've learned to survive through everything.

 

Waymond Wang: I don't know. The only thing I do know... is that we have to be kind. Please, be kind - especially when we don't know what's going on.

 

CEO Waymond: I know you see yourself as a fighter. Well, I see myself as one too. This is how I fight.

 

 

 

Evelyn Wang: You are not unlovable. There is always something to love. Even in a stupid, stupid universe where we have hot dogs for fingers, we get very good with our feet

 

 

 

Waymond Wang: [subtitles] So, even though you have broken my heart yet again, I wanted to say, in another life, I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you.